“I have a sex addiction.”
In over
10 years of service, the client advocate had never heard a client reveal that
struggle. She took a deep breath, and immediately asked if she could pray. Only
the Undefeatable Savior could bear the weight of this
client’s struggle. The counselor prayed and spoke absolute deliverance over her
life through the generous grace of Christ Jesus. Together, they moved even
further into the painful story.
“I need an abortion today.”
She
already was a mother to two children. At twenty-four years old, our client had
a 5 year old and a one year old. The oldest child’s father sits in a prison
cell to this day, while the other father threatens to take away their toddler
on a regular basis. The father of her current pregnancy scare-not even a
boyfriend-has already given her money to have an abortion. He doesn’t want
relational ties to this woman, much less a child with her. These, of course,
were only the men who fathered a child. Her sexual partners extend into a much
longer list. As she revealed this past, she suffered panic attack after panic
attack in the counseling room. The client advocate kept stopping the
conversation to pray, asking God to encircle them in His peace.
She was
alone. She couldn’t even confide to her family about her sexual addiction. Her family,
like her, is actively involved in their church. They don’t go a couple Sundays
out of the month. This family goes to worship, Sunday School, and any scheduled
weekly activities. It was embarrassing enough to have a single mother for a
daughter when she was 19 years old. She couldn’t stand the thought of admitting
the depth of her situation to her family. She couldn’t stand the thought of
humiliating them.
“I was driving to Planned Parenthood this morning
-in my car,
actually driving there,
but I couldn’t make it.
The money in my pocket, yet I couldn’t make it.
I exited I-45, and parked in the Walmart parking lot.
Something brought me here.”
God
brought her here. Her attentive, loving Savior carefully held every shamed tear
she cried those empty nights. He heard her desperate sighs for a different
life. He watched her car drive forward on I-45 to the largest
abortion-operating clinic in the northern hemisphere, and He supernaturally
intervened, reminding her of a pregnancy center in Pasadena, TX. He wanted that
baby, and He wanted that hurting soul.
The
client advocate assured her that she is still and always will be loved. No matter
the sex addiction and no matter the abortion determination, she is forgivable. She
is restorable. She is pursued. She is
wanted. She is noticed as the carefully designed creation of the King of the
universe. The counselor explained how such unbelievable mercy is even possible.
She reminded her that she could never run farther than God’s grace reaches. The
client calmed, and absolutely reveled in the truth of the Lord! She prayed, and
made her relationship with God right again. Her heart immediately shifted.
The pregnancy test
read positive.
She’s choosing
adoption for her new baby.
A changed decision
from a changed woman by an unchangeable God!
“This
means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life
is gone; a new life has begun!”
